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• Fangirl-ed over Korean boys almost on a daily basis. DBSK and SJ is already a handful. And now I'm starting to warm up to 2PM. Great, another 7 some names to remember
• Pet Society. Neopets on facebook. So addicting. So shameful ><;
• Worked~~, Recon how I hate thee

• Study Chinese >>;
• Clean and tidy room and house
• Schedule my life properly. This includes work hours, school hours, extracurricular activities, not being "chunky"....

• Tuition for is rediculous. It costs me more for one class than a resident student to take a full 18 credit load. WTF?
• About 85% of the financial aid goes to in state students, who only have to pay 6,000 per year vs. my 6000 per quarter
• Most of the scholarships in the financial aid office require Washington Residency. Oh shucks
• The school rather budget money to throwing parties and beautifying the campus than to give more financial aid
• My school rather budget a payraise to our President (who hasn't done anything important as far as I can tell) starting this year. A 150,000 increase and a increase in tuition.
• People are inept here at EVERYTHING. I try to change my address online so I can vote in the presidential elections, that part of the website is down. I personally go to a Licensing office in August to change it, AND IT WASN'T ACTUALLY CHANGED UNTIL 5 MINUTES AGO WHEN I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO ACCESS THE ONLINE ADDRESS CHANGE AND CHANGE IT MYSELF.
• My ballot doesn't show my new address....thus I can't vote unless they are willing to let me do a provisional one. And then they might not let me because of some stupid rule about "not letting someone have a provisional vote because they are wearing their hair in a ponytail" or something
• I still haven't received my new voters card, which is apparently necessary for life. Because it proves "evidence of state ties"
• The dorm addresses are screwed up. I can't change my address from the dorm because "there is no physical address, everything goes into one pile" so I have to write to everywhere to change my address.
• My bank still hasn't figured out that I don't live in the dorms anymore. I "updated" it WITH them AT a bank and all my bank statements still show up with my dorm address.

So, I had a great two days, Friday and Sat with my family who I have dearly missed all summer. For the Win. We hung out with my aunt and cousin and had good bonding time. :D

Bu then reality, evil reality kicks in again. I studied like mad all throughout Sun and Mon for my accounting exam today....and~~it turns out that I still didn't do so hot. I might have scrounged up a 80% and higher on it, but I really was expecting more with the amount of sleep I lost for it. :/ My life....I ended up not knowing the name of the concepts, but knew how to solve and work with them. Sigh. That and I made stupid errors. Why must I be such a failure.

And then, while during the test, some moron kept on calling me. I panicked because I forgot to set my phone to silent/vibrate and I really didn't want my professor to disqualify my test. Luckily he didn't care, but the fool kept on calling even when I set my phone on vibrate. So I had it vibrating in my jacket for about a good 10 min. >>;;

And it turns out that the moron who called was a representative from the Global Business Center who wanted to schedule an interview with me. About three weeks ago, I sent out my resume to them about a student assistant who helps plan events. It sounded reaaaallly easy with good pay, so I thought, what the heck why not. Kathleen/Kathy/Cassie was her name (she mumbled so much I couldn't tell what she was trying to say). I called her after class while waiting for my bus and she basically bullied me into scheduling for an appointment during the minimal time I have between work and class (30 min) to interview with her. The gist of our first conversation:

K: So, can you come in, like right now to interview? Or sometime today?
Me: Actually, I'm at the bus stop. I have to get to work....and I have a really full day today...can we possibly reschedule it tomorrow or some other day this week?
K: Why can't you come in today? What do you have to do today?
Me: Um. I have work until 2:30, then I have class until 3:30....and then I want to attend the Career Fair until 6.
K: Come in at 2:45
Me: Er. it takes me an half hour to get back to campus...
K: Okay 3:30 it is then. ::hangs up::
Me: ::stares at phone in a confused way:: I DID NOT AGREE LADY! WHY CAN'T WE SCHEDULE IT TOMORROW?!

So while at work, something kept on bugging me. It didn't hit me that I had another class at 3:30. I totally thought it was Mon. I tried calling her back to reschedule it for later but she never picked up. So I get off at work, practially kill myself trying to get to the bus stop so I can catch it without being late. Get there, and tried leaving her a voicemail. It was super noisy near the bus stop, so I stepped about four feet away so I can listen to see when to leave the message. Due to my wonderful luck, my bus decides to come and when I run back to let the bus driver know I'm there, she looks at me and drives off. I was standing at the bus for about a good 10 seconds, where she had enough time to see and stop for me and she drove off. I leave a lame message on K's answering machine (including a looong pause when the bus driver and I stared at each other) and sit at the bus stop pissed off. 

K calls me back five seconds later
Me: Oh, Hi Kathleen. Did you receive my message?
K: Yes I did. So you can't come in at 3:30 because of your class. Can you come right now?
Me: Um...no. I just missed my bus because the bus driver didn't stop for me. Can I possibly come after 4:30 when I'm done with class? Or even tomorrow?
K: Well, our office closes at 5 and I don't really want to interview so late.
Me: Oh. Um. How about tomorrow? I'm free tomorrow.
K: Well, we don't know our schedule tomorrow. So you can't interview then. I would have to clear it with my boss for to come in. But I really wanted to get all the interviews done today and I didn't want to do it tomorrow.
Me: um. Well this makes it complicated---
K: Yeah I know.
Me: *breathes in and out* Ok....You know what. Why don't we just forget about this. Our schedules clearly do not work out, and I don't want to waste any more of your time.  Thank you for your consideration and I am really sorry about the complications. 
K: Ok, fine. Bye ::hangs up::
Me: ...WTH.  SCREW YOU  :/ 

Yeah I was in a terrible mood earlier. I think I scared/worried a random guy who was walking to his car. I was still pissed off about the bus and K didn't help my mood. Plus I have a tendency to look frustrated/about to cry when I get really angry. He actually walked over and asked if I was okay. >>;; 

But really, that lady was so difficult. I understand that we are supposed to do things "on her schedule" because she is the employer, but you have to give me a bigger window to schdule besides 5 or so hours. *shakes fist*. It was my first time seeing someone only have one day for interviews. And on such short notice too. And what is up with her hanging up so suddenly without any tact? Isn't SHE supposed to be the official that is wise and polite? :/ Ugh why must my life have such crappy people in it?!

On another note, my EAG class is worthless. Everyone either is bored out of their mind in the class and doesn't say anything. Or are attempting to participate and say "like" after every other word.  I've counted. 16 likes in about 3 sentences. And that doesn't even include the first two sentences which had more.

Oh gosh, the last couple of days have been hectic studying for accounting/cleaning my room. If you guys couldn't tell, I've been massively homesick all Summer. I didn't have the chance to head back home to my family and I missed them and their insanity like mad. Stupid Gap and not letting me get time off *sticks tongue out*

But on the bright side, my family is coming up to see me :D I've been excited for weeks about this and they're coming up tomorrow (!!!) but there's a catch to my joy, as with everything else that seems to happen to me.

My housemate.

Right now I live in a house with other people. On my level, there are a total of three females. Me, C, and K. K isn't usually around because she works out of the country (I know, wtf?) so it's mostly K and me. I hardly see K except during dinner when we are eating/cooking different things and in the morning when she zips in the bathroom when I'm looking for my toothbrush. We've gotten along fine for the past month, no problems, great conversation...yay?

I told her about two/three weeks ago that my parents and brothers are coming up to stay with us for about 2-3 days and if she was okay with it. She said she was fine and I told my parents that. I asked her again about a week ago if she was still fine with it, and I stressed that they will be staying here, as in my room. She said it was fine again. I told her again earlier about how excited I was about them coming up and cleaning up my room so they would have more room in there.  She stops and asks if they were to be staying in my room. I said yes and she starts talking about how inconvienent it would be to share the bathroom. Mind you this is during the weekend, and all the other times I've asked her about it, she said that she would be out so it would be fine.

I was like, okay. What times do you usually shower? We can adapt so we won't get in your way. She never gives me a clear answer (oh whenever I feel like it really since it's the weekend and all) and continues on about how inconvienent it would be and why couldn't they stay at a hotel or something? I tell her that hotels are expensive and I apologize about the inconvienence but I tell her that I thought she was fine about the plan, which is why I did it in the first place. She says it is fine, but also tells me I should be more considerate about letting other stay in the house and how I shouldn't do this next time.

So I called my parents and now the plans have changed. They're going to be staying at my Aunt's house (which she doesn't mind at all, she does the same to us) and I'm going along with them so I can actully spend time with them. My aunt lives about an hour away from me.

But seriously, why in the world do I always gets stuck with inflexible people? We share a kitchen and the bathroom. And I mostly upkeep the both (to the best of my abilities). I supply the TP, replace it when it is empty, take out the trash (although she's been doing it for the last week and a half), clean the stove area when it's yucky, make the orange juice traps for the fruitflies (yay they're gone!), refill the paper towels...I don't mind doing this, but really, she needs to do something besides her dishes. She lives here too, supply something yourself!

 I usually do these chores when I notice them, because I'm trying to be considerate, but I'm sick of people taking advantage of the fact that I'm trying to be considerate and making it my job. I've only asked her two things during the time we lived here: to not leave the window open after she showers (because random creatures fly/crawl into the house and i don't want a bug problem), and to take out the trash on a day that I wouldn't be able to.

She only fulfilled the window thing. The trash...was because it was smelling weird and I noticed a revival of the fruitflies. We just changed it, but I changed it again to get rid of whatever was smelling badly. But it was late at night, and I usually don't have time in the mornings so I asked her if she could. She said she could but went on about how she only put three things in the trash and didn't understand how it could have possibly gotten so nasty. Meaning it was what I put in there making it my responsibility. I eventually emptied it myself as I was running out the door just because I don't want to deal with her. But really. If she doesn't want to do it/has a problem with something. I wish she could say so. I try to talk to her/ask her nicely when I have suggestions and whatnot, but this is rediculous.

So just this afternoon, my external hard drive, which I have had for five years, has officially died. All of my music, pictures, photos, homework, and video clips were stored on there. It was basically a compilation of my life on there. Showcasing all my interests and memories in bytes and folders. *weeps in her corner*

I am currently grieving over a hard drive. It may seem silly but I really loved that thing.

It housed all of my music, which has always been something that has kept me from depression from all these stressful years. Some of that music was hard to find too, I put in a lot of hours finding all of it....and some of the files were extremely rare. I LOST ALL MY JOE HISAISHI MUSIC! AND ALL MY TENIPURI STUFF! AND HAKKENDEN, WHICH WAS MY FAVORITE OLD SCHOOL ANIME ALBUM EVER

It also had my memories on there, countless pictures that I've taken to help preserve my school days and trips as well as images that I found lovely. It also had my schoolwork, which as bad as some of it was, was something that reminded me of how much I have changed and improved. *cries* all my high school pictures

But most importantly, it contained a letter from my father expressing how much he and my mother were proud of me and my accomplishments. I found it around this time last year and I was really touched by the letter. Call me a sentimental fool, but I was really happy with how sincere and well written the letter was. It made me cry because my dad, who is not touchy feely/sentimental at all, wrote that and it really meant something.

I just wish there was a way to retrieve my data without paying $70+ an hour. ;__;

I'm hoping it will somehow come back to life long enough for me to rescue my dad's letter.  

Oh my god, I will be so whiny and immature in this post. I know it is coming. I apologize beforehand, but I really need to get this out. :<

This has never happened during the schoolyear (when I am usually stressing out over grades) but I really really want to go back home. Not to the little room in the little house that I rented up in Washington, but home where I can sleep in until noon with my mother harassing me to get up and do something productive with my day, my brothers asking me questions, sweethikari-chan distracting me with shiny stuff, and my dad calling me chubby (in a weird fatherly way). I haven't been back home all Summer and I've missed all my friends who have come back because I've been working my butt off in Washington for cheaper tuition.

It's not that I hate it up here. Sure I have my problems with the Gap, but things are getting routine for me there. I'm making friends with the co-workers, my managers pretty much kind of know I exist, the customers aren't being complete jerks...life is okay over there. Not the best, but okay enough for me to stomach. My internship is going great. I love the office ladies. The work is easy, yet important enough that I need to actually pay attention to what I am doing. The friends that I have made up here always make my life interesting and I do &hearts; them lots. And I know that I do have family nearby, but it's just not the same.

Even though Oregon isn't as lively as Washington, won't give me the freedom that living on my own does (oh my mom will def. have problems with how I do things on my own), it gives me a sense of security that Washington doesn't. I don't have to worry about whether I networked properly with the office ladies, or If I can wake up, make my breakfast and lunch and still make my bus in the morning....I don't have to worry about rushing out of the internship at 12:57 to catch the 1:00 bus towards the Gap.  I don't have to worry about finding a better job to replace the Gap after my internship is over (because even though the Gap has been getting better, I still don't like retail at all) I don't have to worry about screwing up royally at the Gap and having some 35 year old mom screaming at me about bad customer service. I need not worry about walking home late at night when my Jesse can't give me a ride back. I don't have to worry about the freakishly expensive prices of food down in Oregon (the price for a pound of nectarines: 2.99 Washington. 0.79 in Oregon). I don't have to worry about having enough hours and having enough money to cover the requirements for tuition AND residency...I don't have to worry about pushing myself to overcome obstacles that I'm not ready to overcome to be considered good enough for this position, or that job, or for just being able to live by myself.

I really miss my friends. Many of them messaged me wondering where I was and how much they missed me. And I really miss them too, my Washington friends and Oregon friends are equally amazing and awesome, but totally different. And even though Sweethikari-chan spent a wonderful week up here with me, I feel so guilty working 10+ hours for 4/7 days she was here and then being too tired to properly hang out with her. 

I thought that when I first started this residency thing, living on my own and working my way through school for a year, it would be good for me. Get me out of the little house I've become used to living in. Make me tougher and more independent. My mother keeps on telling me how amazed the entire family is about how well I've adapted to this and how proud she is of me, but I just want to take a break from being responsible and independent. I really want to go back home and have my mom to make soup for me while I talk to her, or to just laze around the house without worrying about getting enough done today and enough sleep for work tomorrow. And I can't do that because I'm stuck by contracts from both jobs as well as the rules for residency.

Yeah, I have better things to do at 2:11 in the morning, like showering or washing my dishes...but I just spent 54 minutes moping. Sigh, my life...

Frick, I totally pushed the wrong button, but I guess this warrents an update? I just saw something black and gigantic scrurry from the bathroom, brb. 

Edit: OMG WHERE DID IT GO WHERE DID IT GO FRICK FRICK FRICK

Edit2: OKAY SO I KILLED IT, BUT IT WAS A GIGANTIC SPIDER LIKE FOR SRS. MY GOD IT CRAWLED LIKE THE SPEED OF LIGHT AND WAS GIGANTIC. IT WAS THE SIZE OF AN IPOD SCREEN. I FOUND IT UNDERNEATH THE CHAIR NEXT TO ME *DIES* And being the boob I am, I took pictures of it. Then pummeled the thing to death when it moved. Gigantic Dustpans for the win. T__T 

No seriously, it crawled as fast as a rat could run. *dies*  I'm going to check my room, make sure no surprises....